Say it again for me, 'cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm the only one who blows your mind.

Leaving is easy, staying is easy.
Whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that you do it, because you can't know. You can't ever really know the meaning of your life. And you don't need to. Just know that your life has meaning. Every life has a meaning. Whether it lasts one hundred years or one hundred seconds. Every life and every death changes the world in its own way. Ghandi knew this. He knew his life would mean something to someone, somewhere, somehow. And he knew with as much certainty that he could never know that meaning. He understood that enjoying life should be of much greater concern that understanding it. And so do I. You can't know. So don't take it for granted. But don't take it too seriously. Don't postpone what you want. Don't leave anything misunderstood. Make sure the people you care about know. Make sure they know how you really feel. Because just like that, it could end.

not understanding is one of the hardest parts about life.
sometimes there are unfortunate circumstances that you just cant wrap your head around and sometimes there are people..

I think life is simpler than we tend to think. We look for answers and more answers. But there are no answers. Things happen in life, good things and bad. People say, 'Why did it happen to me?' Well, why not? Some people win the lottery, and others die in a car crash. It happens, and there is nothing we can do about it. The universe doesn't care what happens to you.


Homesickness is just a state of mind for me. I’m always missing someone or someplace or something, I’m always trying to get back to some imaginary somewhere. My life has been one long longing.


LOLZ my neice just picked up "hollywood playboy" spray and called it "hollywood rabit"
so cuteeeee.

Sticks and stones are hard on the bones, aimed with anger and art. Words can sting like anything, but silence breaks the heart..

Dear Finn, I'm sorry I < / 3, please understand, all i wanted was to hold your hand
Clyde, you turned me into who I am.. You'll never change. I wish I could hate you. Indiffence would be worse but I can't lie..hide behind those blue green eyes, your such a waste of time..








We don't ever have to grow up, please.

Being used to confusion and new to emotion leaving land logged blues for the coast by the ocean..

Lemonade and sneakers

So I'm leavin in a week! I've been trying to get eveythig done for at least the last two weeks, but
It's almost
usless to do somethings untill right before.
I have a wild imagination and almost couldint sleep last night because I was so excited <3
All the babie kitties will be going to their new homes tonight/tomorrow. This is huge. I feel as though I gave birth to them myself. Here are some picss






I loves my furry little family.
Well Mya and Maui already have their mini suitcases packed and ready to go. Soco doesn't like change!



I saw this painting at the art shop and I love love it. Its got glitter paint.
Today will be Sneakers, sweaping & sad goodbyes.
xoxo

I'll find a way or I'll make one

Making plans to go home is defintly not easy.
Life is slinking past ups and downs as usual. I don't make decitions I just go with it. I should be more pro-active!



I would be terrably excited if this were writen on a toilet paper roll I encountered!
The kittens are growing outrageously large and have gorgeous blue eyes. I'm pretty sure I'm keeping this grey one ..



But I've fallin in mad love with the first born! He's huge and a little chubby. I named him notorious BIG.



Baha he is so freaking cute.

xoxo riiley

& when it hits September I feel like I'm dyin again..

........ I've never seen anything
So real.

Im planning a trip home. I'm scared.

Inside out shirts and Ativan

Phillip left me today. At 10 in the morning. I am so sad an lonely now that my little friend has gone. <\3.
It's strange how somebody from your past could fix the hole in you that you would have carried to the future forever.
I forgot what it was like to have someone around who knows the real me. No games. No lies just love :)

Anyway I was really happy to spend so much time with him that I think maybe I'll go for a visit? Or move.. We will see how the next month goes but I'm preparing for it.




Happy in love with no one, doesn't that sound fun, to do what you always said you would ...

Pink black & white

Mya had her babies!! I came home and I knew she felt thinner, so I went looking for them and she let me upstairs to the closet where there was a small pile of black pink and white furry things!! They are sooo tiny!!!



The picture quality sucks because this is actualy a picture of a picture from my camera.. I just couldint wait.



Ah, I'm so in love. I think I might name them. All with the "M" theme like Mya and Maui. Mya Maui mickey Minnie and mahalo <3

I'm off to sleepy heavens and minnie meows from tiny babie kittys !

bedazzled castle in the woods

bedazzeled cameras? i think its a wonderfull idea. i can just think of these little crown sparkly embelems i have at home that i would use . .

I have found my deam home <3.>

You're so elusive

I stayed awake most of the night writing music and listening to music. When I force myself to write about something it actually
Works and it never does when I just sit down and wait for it. I'd e staring at a blank page for a long time.






I'm trying to save all of the pictures from my phone onto something and it makes perfect sence to do it here. Randomly.

So I'll be Here at brans house untill Friday. And he took his computer with him to work so I will only have my iPhone and guitar to keep me busy. My fingers are tired from typing and my fingertips are so sore. I've almost exhausted my only activitys.

I'm on another Archie star kick. Im having trouble finding all
Their tracks though.. If you haven't heard of them I suggest you go look them up immidiatly. Spelling errors.

I miss blue :(. It's strange to think he might be in the same room as me and I never knew untill he was good. So elusive.


I’ll burn the city down and walk on water,
I had my arms spread, but never caught her,
I got her name across my chest,
I’m young and stupid is what they said,
and she said, she said “You’ll always be the boy I love but had to leave”
Just leave

Charm bracelets

Charm bracelets are my new obsession. It seems like they are comming out all over the place these days. I was reading somewhere about a gold plated charm bracelet from juicy and it inspired me.











If you'd like to build your own charm bracelets check out http://www.pandora-jewelry.com


I started using Dior bronzer and it's iincredable. It's just the right mix of sparkle and blush.






Sooo the Ipad came out recently.. And I'm not sure I quite get it though.. Is it just like a large iPhone or does it have more features?






Would you purchase one of these, even if you had the iPhone as well?

Sunday obsession

Obsessions of this week are...




Twillight woods lotion from bath and body works




Sexy mother pucket lip plumper.

The lotion is a huge distraction for me because everytime I see it I must apply!

Sunday obsession?

Pre Spring 2010

Dying to have!

Alexander McQueen :


Studded skull flat sandal 725$ . . these are practiccal everday sandals. i can rationalise.




Red skull zipper flat 575$

Lace knit leggings 145.00 . . asap.

D&G

Mini skirt 231$


thats just the tip of the iceberg!

Hellokitty wallpaper

This is my current iPhone wallpaper!





I'm obsessed with hellokitty so i thought I'd post these awesome other pics of her.















Hellokitty never gets old!

Riiley

make it right for one more night

Tonight I am at Bran's house again. I keept trying to find some good music to listen to but I'm just not in the mood! I wish that I brought books with me. . and I wish even more that Sarah Dessen would write me a new one! preferably about my life, and she could fill in all the bits that i am unsure about.

Its strange lately how all these old aquantinces, or people that i would have maybe called friends are contacting me recently. A long time ago i would have been so excited to talk to them but now i just don't care at all. I don't feel close to anyone anymore. On the other hand it is spring time now and that means time for change and summer is just around the corner! although it would be really nice to have some direction. Or to be able to figure out what the heck i wannt!

Remember back in the day when everyone used to communicate over MSN? Do people still do this? I don't do it. I kinda wish i did. Now that i think about it, MSN was a reason for a lot of really great relationships blossoming in my time! MSN made my entire generation change the way we talked. BRB, LOL, WTF, ROTFL.. i still use some of these.

I really want to move to BC. Its the most alive place i've ever been. In a city way but also with all the mountains and constant green grass. I seriously cannot get enough of it! I will go there for any reason at all!

TTFN <-- that one is an oldie but goodie!